Good morning everyone. I am really enjoying my new morning routine. As you might be able to tell I have a few things running around in my head these days. What was motivated by all the BS we hear every single day has changed to me seeing and hearing some positive reply's. In fact, I have seen and read more positive posts this week than I have in a long time. If you were curious, I am this chatty in real life too! Sorry Wendy Lescarbeau-Mccloud, I think our kids got it from me.
One thing that makes me happier than anything is knowing that the tough lessons I learned in the past didn't kill me. If you have made mistakes, or gone down the wrong path, it's ok. Life goes on.
I don't care who you are, we have all done things we are not proud of. Not repeating them is what it is all about.
Other than one huge speed bump at work the other day this has been a great week. There seems to be a calm settling in over me. I have no idea where it came from, but it is real and it feels great. Perhaps this new outlet is part of it.
Yesterday someone responded and said she has no idea who I am, but like reading my posts. Another person responded that she thought I was a woman. He that's cool too. So here is a little about me.
I am 44 and live in Enfield CT with my wonderful beautiful wife and equally wonderful and beautiful kids. I am your typical blue collar kid from western mass. All I have ever done is work. I worked for my dad in his shop where he taught me about tools and thinking through problems. And how to work on cars!
I worked for neighbors doing all kinds of odd jobs, from cleaning a leather shop to collecting sap for maple syrup.
I worked for a short time in a bakery and a book store. Since high school I have had three jobs. The Army and two phone companies. One of which I have been at for almost 14 years.
I like to ski, run, work out, watch football, be lazy at the beach, and make people smile.
All the stuff in between has made me who I am.
One thing I can assure is that I am not going to change. I am what I am.
This weekend I am going to sign up for my third official half marathon. I guess it's official because i have to pay for it. This one is special. It is a the Walter Childs Race of Champions, Holyoke half and full marathon or something like that.
I am raising money for Griffins Friends Children's Cancer Center. The leader of our crew is the mother of a Griffins friend cancer SURVIVOR. These kids go through so much and just deal with it! There stories and their parents stories are really inspiring and make my issues seem very small.
So watch out for more posts on that. If you feel inclined to donate a few dollars, hey that would be awesome. I don't run for me and I am certainly not going to win a damn thing. It is literally for the kids and families.
I may be running to raise money for kids, but I am also running for my mom. She is a colon cancer survivor and she has a clean bill of health now. My aunt Jean died from cancer and to this day it kills me that i could not say goodbye. That's Army life for you.
Cancer just plain sucks, it is my job to try and raise a few bucks to make things better. I cannot even begin to imagine the pain the kids endure. I don't even think I could be as strong as the mom and dad's and other family members that I have met along the way. So with all my aches and pains and broken parts from my days in the Army, i just suck it up for a couple hours and getter done!
I am skipping the gym this morning to hopefully take advantage of a nice evening 6-8 miles. If anyone is free hit me up! It's so much better with friends.
So this is a little light into what makes me tick. I sincerely hope you have read these and thought about what makes you tick and what gifts you have to share. Life is not easy folks, but it gets better when you let go of the little stuff.
I have been blessed with a new lease on life (a couple of times). I will take in every negative comment. I will take every cross eyed glare from the haters and and negative people. It only fuels my fire.
Just please don't cross me or my family. Something's are just plain off limits.
If you have the weekend off or some down time, i would ask that you take an inventory of your life. Think back to high school or college or whatever. If you are not where you want to be. Do something to fix it. If you don't nobody else will.
Take a second or two to think about how good you have it. Trust me when I tell you that at one time I literally had nothing.
As my days of sobriety have turned into years (17) I have weird flashbacks of events. One thing that i will never forget is the fall of 1997. I was dead broke in the Army stationed in Germany. We were in and out of the field preparing for a NATO evaluation of our war fighting skills. I desperately needed a hair cut, but could not afford one. So one of our LT's said he would shave my head for free. And you know what? A lot of my friends did too. Thanks guys. I will never forget this.
So today is Friday. I hope you have enjoyed another rant from the peanut gallery! Maybe I should write a book.
I screwed up a few days worth, but i think I figured it out.
Thanks for your time and have a wonderful day and weekend. Smile where ever you go, and if you must complain about something make sure you have a good solid viable plan to fix it.